hey pencil.. i can understand exactly how you feel. I started drawing a few years ago as well and from july 2004 until just recently i was pretty much stuck. i didnt draw a single thing even tho i wanted to. Now its like my passion, but i have so many things i want to do. You probably need a break just to take time to sort things out.

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Going to live until I die...

Failure.

Failure envelops our lives from day to day, and whoever isn't afraid of failure is haplessly lying to you. Of course, I admit to fearing failure, but since I've failed so many times, it's become on a lesser scale; I don't really care if I fail or not anymore. I shrug, pick myself up, and try again.

Art
Girls
School
Business
Finances

This is just a small list compared to what I have particularly failed at. Some more than others, but now, I've come to a point of maturity and look at these things and tell myself, "Well, try again."

And comparing yourself to the younger, crazy artists that have nothing better that screw with photoshop and make insanely amazing art, well, that is also my depressing points as well; People are all interested at looking at their works, and not at people who actually try and make something that they pour their heart and soul into. That's why I have posted less and less, and soon, I'm probably going to stop posting completely and enjoy my works up on my wall. To me, it's pathetic to see "artists" play with a drawing for five minutes on photoshop and make it crazy, and then they get a million views in five minutes, and then have my work looked at for weeks and only get 20 views.

Anywho, I understand.

Thanks man...
Like I said, it's whiny, and pathetic, but I really need to know that other people have the same thoughts. I think taking a break is a good idea. It's just I can't help but think how horrible it would be if after two years of University, the teacher told me "Look, you just don't have the talent." It would be like a tone deaf person who wanted to sing opera more than anything else in the world. I think I couldn't take it.

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The man in me would kill the wolf....
and the wolf in me would eat the man.

Sorry for all the whining,

Someone should call a "Waambulance," and some Jedi, cuz I'm turning into "Waanakin" Skywalker. But seriously...I'm not really "Comparing" myself to other artists per se. I am however a realist. To make it big in art you have to do one of these things a) be REALLY AMAZINGLY GOOD (i may be in time, but I'm not now) b) find your Niche (again, maybe later but not now) c) Be really flexible (see points a&b) d) Have connections (ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! I HATE HUMAN CONTACT!!! Except throught the net... Otherwise, people scare me). So... yeah. That's all I'm going to say about that. I WILL keep working on it, and I won't give up, but I'm still scared, and I may still call for support, or a patient ear.

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The man in me would kill the wolf....
and the wolf in me would eat the man.

You don't want to hear what I have to say about art...

However, all of your concerns are founded in good areas of thought. It is very true what you've noted, but the key is if you are willing to go along with those things for what you love. If your love of art exceeds all other avenues of expression and what you'd want to do with your life, then art is what is right for you, and you should go for it full on.

My own views regarding art have changed drastically in the last year, but that concerns nothing here. I know you can make it in art if you put your heart and soul into Christina. I have complete confidence in you.

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Be

I know the feeling all too well, its plauged me as long as I've been drawing. But people encourage you, I think you're better than myself, much better.

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If everyone would just forgive someone else, so much pain would be taken off of all of our shoulders... but as tenderness is a virtue it is also a failing, any who would do such a thing usually fall to those who wouldn't.

I have the same problem all the time. it's frustrating really.....

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I wanna fly so I can reach the highest of all the heavens,

Somebody will be waiting for me so I have gotta fly higher,

Gotta keep going, everything is a brand new challenge for me,

I WILL BELIEVE IN MYSELF, This is the only start for me!